Self-Reflection + Bucket List

I've been neglecting my blog and art-progress in general lately because I've been working on solving some emotional and mental puzzles. As is in my nature, I tend to deep-dive into solving a problem when I allow myself to start unraveling one. I hyper-focus and often leave everything else on the sidelines while I sort things out. Amid all of this I dove into a lot of self-reflection, searching for answers to many personal questions, and re-affirmed that I land squarely into the INTJ Personality type. I have made great strides toward understanding myself from this research and self-analyzing, which I feel is the most important part of the journey; to keep learning and moving forward. 
Now, as is the case with all science and theory, nothing is absolute but we can draw general conclusions with enough information, and even detailed conclusions once enough data is gathered and analyzed. More importantly we can learn a lot along the way, even drawing new conclusions from failures or generalizations. But enough of my rambling. If you want to look into what I'm talking about more, I will give you a very short summary with some links that I found helpful. 

There is a leading theory in psychology that all people fall into psychological types, originally introduced by Carl G Jung in the 1920s, and later developed by Isabel Briggs Myers, with research ongoing to this day, through a tool that is named MBTI Instrument (Myers-Briggs Type Indicator). ((More info directly from the source, here: http://www.myersbriggs.org/my-mbti-personality-type/mbti-basics/ ))

Out of the 16 personality types, I land in the rarest sliver of the population, as an INTJ, and even more rarely as a female INTJ. Instead of making this self-reflection drag on for much longer, I am embedding a helpful info-graphic that is by no means comprehensive, but at least lays down the basics (at the very bottom of this blog post), and if you're interested in reading more, I found that info graphic as well as many other articles from www.intjvision.com to be very insightful and helpful.
*Please note: (The INTJ 'Facts' that this particular infographic lists are of course generalizations, but I'm sure anyone that knows me would agree that I fit the overall picture being painted to a T.)

 

Now that I've explained a bit more about myself, I can share with you my ironic and spot-on behaviour when I was faced with some recent life-decisions. I dove straight into making myself an organized and prioritized list, as if it were the only natural course to take. We had a good giggle when Shane pointed out just how me this was. 

So if you would like to follow along, you can find it by clicking this button >

 

I would like to work on blogging more often, and while I prefer to focus on my art because opening up is hard for me, I think sharing my personal growth is important even though I find it hard to do. This is one of my small steps toward learning how to open up and express myself, so I will occasionally post rambling insanities and insights just like this. (I will make sure to tag them all into the 'Personal' Category to stuff 'em all into the same corner of the internet.) Hopefully the next one is more informative, since this one dragged on as a stumbling introduction. ^-^

INTJ personality type

Changes and Development

We are nearing the 3 year mark since I launched my website, and boy has it been a wild ride. Ups and downs, twists and turns, and a whole helluva lot of learning experience along the way.

Over that time I have experimented with lots of features, options and offerings, most of which were slotted under the title 'Special Projects'. This was my personal overarching study, or rather, set of studies, where I would offer discounted commissions in any particular style that I happened to be practicing and pursuing. It was an overall aim to expand my skills, and while in theory I had set it up to encourage me to work on them more, I have finally settled that this theory was a failed one. In reality, setting up commissions for styles that I was not comfortable did not end up making me want to push them and develop them better, but instead kind of... resulted in the opposite. I began to dread working on some of the projects because I felt like nothing I produced was good enough. That what I was producing didn't reach that level of perfect that I needed it to be. It was like half of me wasn't conversing with the other half, because I knew that it was for practice on something new, but I also knew that it had to be perfect to uphold it to my other work. This is something I struggle with in all of my practice pieces, in truth, and I'm only coming to terms with it recently. I have to let go of trying to get all the details all the time, and let my practice pieces be practice pieces, and accept that I won't like most of my artwork, but I have to get through the pieces I don't like, to get to those masterpieces that are locked up somewhere in the darkest depths of my grey matter.

So in conjunction with these findings I have finally settled to just close down my Special Projects entirely. I will continue to have commissions open and available in the areas and styles that I am comfortable in. And instead of the Special Projects, I will simply be setting aside some time within my work schedule for experimentation and practice as a part of my daily routine, but having that be on my own whims and wishes, I think, will be more productive in the long run.

 

With that all said, I have created a new section in my Design commissions called Badge Design!
This has actually stemmed from various bits and corners of previous Special Projects, mainly my Chibi and PokeChibi Projects, for those of you who've been following my progress. This Badge Design service is a summary of by far my best development over the last 3 years.
Badges are created with the intention for use as avatars, icons, achievement badges, emoticons, emojis, pagedolls, stickers, etc! As these pieces are smaller and simpler in nature than paintings or full-fledged illustrations, they have their own pricing structure and as such deserved their very own page. Click the giant button to go check out all the details!

 

This year has several planned goodies in the works, so here's to more failures that lead to many more successes down the line.

Thank you to everyone who has supported me along the way, and thank you to my beloved husband, who is always there to encourage, challenge, inspire me, and also remind me that I am and always will be my own worst critic.